Annagail Lynes' Blog

In the past week, God has been talking to me about trust, about relinquishing control of my life to Him.  He told me that when I try to be in control of every detail of my existence, I tie His hands from working in my circumstances.

Control comes from fear.  Fear that something will go wrong.  Fear is having more faith in bad things happening in your life than good.

For a long time, I believed if I just did enough that everything would be okay.  If I prayed hard enough and confessed enough, my grandmother wouldn't die. 

If I forgot my prayers one night and my cousin died, I didn’t see that as a coincidence.  Instead I blamed myself because I should have remembered to pray. 

I set up certain routines.  I believed that if I didn't complete those routines in the prescribed manner that something bad would occur.  Can you say obsessive-compulsive?

I took on a lot of false guilt and burdens that were not mine to carry.  I felt as if the weight of the world was on my shoulders, that I was responsible for what happened in my world.

I felt I was being a responsible person by worrying and going through my routines to keep everything and everyone in my world safe like a juggler in the circus.  But I wasn't being responsible.  Instead I was full of pride. 

I played god in my life.  I did all the work and didn’t allow God to help me.  And then, I turned around and accuse God of not doing anything for me.   I became angry with Him because I didn't see Him working in my life.

God never does anything against our will.  As long as my hands are on the wheel of my life, God will patiently wait until I remove them, until I give control over to Him.  If I don't, the car of my life might reach its destination, but the trip will be a lot slower and harder than if I had just let God drive.

I challenge you (and me too!) to lose control, to give God the steering wheel of your life.  With God in control of your life, He will make something extraordinary out of your ordinary, make a miracle out of your mess.  Lose control and let Him.