Runaway Mind
My mind has always been a problem for me. My Mom calls me a thinker. One of my former boyfriends used to call me analytical.
The truth is that I am addicted to worry and obsessive thought. I've struggled with a generalized anxiety disorder and an obsessive-compulsive disorder. Both of which started in my mind.
Growing up, I remember having routines. I thought that if I just completed my routines that everything would be fine, that nothing bad would happen.
If bad still did, I thought it was because I didn't do enough. I didn't do my routines enough. Typical behavior for one with obsessive-compulsive disorder.
But the obsessive-compulsive disorder and anxiety disorder didn't become my entire life until I had what Mark Chironna calls a NDE, or a near-death experience.
I developed a kidney stone when I was twenty-three. I drank a total of eighty ounces of water in one hour in an attempt to pass the stone.
I depleted my electrolytes--my potassium and sodium levels. I couldn't walk. I couldn't talk. My organs weren't functioning properly.
My Mom and grandfather rushed me to the doctor. I sat there listening to the conversation, but I became frustrated when I talked, and they couldn't hear me.
I slipped into an unconscious state, where I almost died. I didn't because my Mom was praying. She wouldn't let up until she knew I was okay.
That's when the battle in my mind intensified. God and I have been taking territory back from the devil over the past few years, but we still have a ways to go.
The Bible tells us that anything that exalts itself against the knowledge of God need to be brought into captivity to the obedience of the God (2 Corinthians 10:5).
We do this by making God and His Word bigger in our lives than our fears, our anxieties, our problems. We do this by meditating on the Word. Speaking it over our lives, thinking about it, studying it, listening to it, talking about it.
We must make God's Word higher and bigger in our minds than our mountain of despairs and troubles. Then we can defeat the mountains in our mind.
- Annagail Lynes
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